My name today not sure but frustrated seems to work.....

It always amazes me how quickly things can change. Just when I think I have things figured out ( I can see God chuckling)  opportunities come up and things change. So I am now taking a step back still planning on selling down and selling the house. Still planning on going on the Craft fair circuit but a friend is interested in doing it also. This person already has a toy hauler and truck so that would cut the costs way back. Who knows we need to work out the details. Time will tell
My other frustration is Musselshell County is flooding again and it is still raining. I have worked with the Musselshell County Recovery Team for the last three years recovery from floods in 2011 then wildfires in 2012. Worked myself out of a job in 2013 due to most work being finished and lack of staff funding so I have been out of work since January. So all I can do now is volunteer where needed. I wish I could do what I learned to do over the years but can't so here I sit.
I know my life is in God's hands and he will lead me to where I need to be. I'm just not seeing it ye.t

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These are picture taken this morning they are not out of focus that is the fog. So sad to see the devastation to the places that so many people worked to restore.

A day of muti-personality

My name changed many times today.....
Entrepreneur, Grammy, Negotiator, Friend, Organizer, Exhausted...

Entrepreneur.... My dad used to always say "If you throw enough shit against the wall something will stick"
Those words have given me the strength to fallow my dreams over the years. As you read about my latest dream I need to figure a way to fund my adventure...the wheels have been turning. I have been drawn back to what I know Art and Retail. So the plan is (God Willing)

•  design a Craft Show booth...done...
•  next question to be answered will it be solo
•    will it be a joint booth with other talented Artists from the valley
• ...or will my talented relatives want to work together and provide inventory to represent the talents that God has blessed our family with???? Time will tell 
•  the calendar has been checked and I can attend 20 different shows over the next 5 months across Montana, this will give me a chance to test the waters.
•  Applications have been requested next step build the booth so I can have pictures to submit with applications.

Grammy.... My favorite job Alaina and Jaden get to come a spend the weekend we need to wait for school out to be out to head back home. So Zac Payton Alaina and I go to lunch. This was a experience as they had spent the night with Grandma pretty tired little girls.

Negotiator... After lunch which included a conversation on my dream...We headed out to look for a Toy Hauler. It's all about connections, Zac has a roping buddy that happens to sell them.

• He asks lot of questions as to what my plans are. I tell him (I repeat this so I keep myself on track) I am planning on going on the Art and Craft show circuit in Montana, need room to bring my Harley along, and have room to carry my booth as well as inventory.
•  Ok he says and on to look at 4 options. We cover all levels from basic to the dream. I decide on one that is a great buy, one that I can live in.
•  If my plan works in Montana I will head south an do the same next winter
• .We agree on a price agree Zac's truck will work to haul it with terms should be good here.... 
• We make the deal now to put the numbers to work 
•  I will be using my business woman skills this week end and head to the bank Monday and see how well he believes in me.

Friend...I was called on my way to Billings to see if I could man phones as the Musselshell is rising again UGGG regretted that I couldn't but assured them I would check in to see how things are going when I get back to town. I did... the word is we will flood again at what degree only Mother Nature knows. A friend posted that help was needed to get a family evacuated they were one of the homes damaged in the last flood still not back to a new normal. So I headed down. only about 5 blocks away so Jaden stepped up to watch her sister armed with her cell phone and connected with Facebook. And me running back and forth. I checked in, could see we needed a lot more people because a construction shop needed moved to.



Coordinator...  So my volunteer coordinator hat went on and I headed to the youth center where all the kids hang out on Friday night. Whet in said hey John we need young, strong and willing kids to help get this done. So immediately I had 12 to 20 kids headed to the river. At present time we had one trailer to fill as soon as it returned, the kids went to work getting things organized to be ready to load as soon as it got there and they did in a matter of a couple hours had the shop was emptied, sandwiches were delivered by another local woman, 4 more trailers appeared and possessions  are on higher ground and won't be under water if it happens again. The young adults all said they would be willing to help move it all back when it's safe. These young people were amazing. I was again proud to be able to do what I do best connect people.

That brings me to Exhausted...Got home for the final time around 1 am. Jaden and Alaina did great... played great together... one stop I fixed mac n cheese... one stop got jammies on... one stop bed time tv... great to be in a small town.

Dogs didn't seem to care they still wanted out at 7. So coffee is one and I'm writting here.

Who knows what my name will be today right now it's ?????????? not enough coffee in me to know....

Thoughts and prayers to those in the line of the Musselshell..

Tammy

Today my name is Friend :
 Had a lunch with one good friend yesterday, she has her regular chef salad with blue cheese and ranch and I have Grill Chicken Salad with Vinegar and oil. How original is that.
We have a great conversation on life. We are both in the same situation  living, single and supporting our self, currently unemployed, either over qualified or under qualified for the jobs out there. Of course the topic of men came up and had to laugh because we new we had a lot in common, as the conversation went on we found out we had one more thing in common. We both dated the same guy, that we met online LOL. It was reassuring to find out I wasn't the crazy one. He was just as bazaar with her as he was with me. Enough said... but was worth the laugh.
 Discussed what our next move should be, how do we want to spend this phase of life.
 I shared my current dream of selling everything buying a Toy Hauler and Pickup loading up "Purple" (those of you that don't know I bought a purple Harley 3 years ago and found the love of my life LOL) and hitting the road to ride in all 50 states. Told her how I had spent the other day ordering a travel planners from every state. My mailman is going to wonder what the hell, here in a couple weeks when they start arriving.
 I also researched the 2014 Ralley calendar but not sure I'm interested, crowds don't excite me I enjoy the solitude of America's 2 lane highways enjoying the beauty of what God has made for our enjoyment. I shared my idea of a book I'd like to do titled " Me and my friends: America, 2 Lane, and Purple". A photographic coffee table book of America's 2 lane Highways from the seat of Purple though the lenses of my Camera.
We ended our lunch on a good laugh and thought that we are in a good spot, life looks good and full of adventures left to take.
Twice blessed today another friend showed up for a afternoon visit. Funny how similar our lives are, she currently is in the early phase of becoming single at 60 living all the frustrations of making the decision to make it final. I am happy to be a support system for her, this is a very hard stage to be in but I see her getting from guilt to the
pissed stage the f bomb flowed freely. Where you realize you have to do what is best for you. Can't worry about him or what it is doing to him. He already did the damage to you and didn't care. A hard realization that the hopes and dreams you had for your marriage are yours not his. We talk about the opportunities that are ahead that can only be realized one step at a time.She has to get her situation taken care of. But we are planning a big Indoor Garage sale in May. If you happen to stop buy you are welcome to go through the boxes and take what you'd like.
I share with her my plans also and she is very supportive too.
So my next step will be to talk with my family about how serious I am about moving toward this adventure. I have shared it in conversation with them but they hear a lot of hair brain ideas of mine so I don't think they think I am serious. But they never thought I'd really buy a Harley either.LOL

As I close this blog I realize how important my friends are how they keep me sane, how they listen to my frustrations, now they support my dreams, how they trust me with their life situations,how we can laugh and realize  if we want to make God laugh tell him our plans.
As I move forward I ask for God's blessing on where and what I should be doing.
Right now it is to get my house ready to sell, downsize my stuff, and dream about riding in all 50 states.
With God's will I will.

Enjoy your day and keep your dreams alive,
Grammy Tammy

It all starts with a name...

I've started this blog many times but never hit the publish button. So here I sit again typing and wondering if I have anything to say. Yes I do

As titled Life with Grammy makes me think who I am ... for years I was:

• John's sister and hated that he was 4 years younger but the star of everything the golden boy from the beginning. The world stops cause John comes around. 
• My parents daughter.... was proud to be that they were always there for me and supportive of everything I did.
• My Nana's Granddaughter the oldest one.. we were so much alike that we locked horns many times I remember one time being introduced to some friends of her's and it went from being Myrtle's granddaughter, Diane's Daughter and I chimed in as my kids mom but Tammy was never mentioned.
• I then became Justin (the mom of the baby that died), Zac and Zane's Mom nothing better than being their mom until....
•  Becoming Grammy to 3 wonderful girls Jaden, Payton and Alaina.

However after all those roles I am Tammy Zemliska I was born that way and will die that way.

 I have been Tammy James who was married to Dennis "Dan" James for 15 years had 3 wonderful boys with. Could not stay married to as we approached life in different ways but am thankful for the boys he gave me.

I then became Tammy James the single mom. I made the decision to stay single as long as I was raising the boys. Did not know of any successful blended families, knew I could not give a relationship the effort it deserved and as raise the boys that God had blessed me with. Was it easy HELL no we had our troubles and they had problems because of the abandonment of their dad. But we had a good life and they turned into productive citizens and are now dad's that I could not be more proud of. When Zane was a senior I decided it was time for me to find someone and did.

I then became Tammy Brewer that was a real experience... we were together for 5 years that changed my life... he bought a ranch.. I built a log home while he worked the oil field so we could afford it. I raised 125 head of cows and 200 sheep was a ranch wife in all sense of the word but didn't have the name so told him we either got married or I was moving on. So in his words I forced him to marry me and things went down hill from there. We stayed married for 5 years and I lived the life of cheap labor. I loved my life on the ranch and in my dream home but the mental abuse got to be to much.

So again divorced I became Tammy Zemliska. 

I have been  a business owner both owning A Touch of Class with mom we had that shop from 79 to 91.     I  then moved from Newcastle to Billings. Not sure it was right or not took the boys away from everything they knew. We went on to have quite the adventure as a single mom with 2 boys. 

Found out I was not a good employee needed to do things my way so opened up Just Flowers in downtown Billings 2 years later changed it from a Flower Shop to the only Design School between Denver and Seattle. I taught students from all over the state and surrounding area helped to open up several flower shop. 

Was happy  to help so many people fallow their dream of working or owning a flower shop. 

I have been a general contractor, builder helper, rancher, and developer of a guest ranch.

Redefining myself at 50 lead me to working with a community foundation something totally new but I welcomed the challenge of helping the community I was living in. I then was given the opportunity to work with a long term recovery team that helped the most vulnerable that we effected my the floods of 11 and wildfires of 12. This job taught me more about people than anything I had ever done. How people need to be respected for who they are.

Now I am at another turning point looking to define who and what I want to do in this phase of life.

God has blessed me with so many experiences that I hope to be able to use to make a difference. 

I hope to use this blog as a place to document this adventure in a new career not yet defined, my adventures in dating after 50, my journeys on Purple (more to come on that) my place to share my life for the 3 most important girls in my life. Also my spot to share my adventures with them. So here we go I will push the publish button and see what happens. Here's to the best that is yet to be.